Helloo friends 🙂
I wanted to hop on and write a quick post for you guys!
First off, I am so excited for summer to get here, and more importantly, I am soo excited for school to wrap up (**speaking on behalf of students everywhere).
One reason I’m so excited is because I can’t wait to write more on my blog. I have a lot of ideas for upcoming posts, and I really want to do more lifestyle posts. I absolutely LOVE devotionals, but I also love to read and write things that inspire everyday life. So hopefully that happens soon 😉
I think I’ve restarted this post probably 10x. I kept tossing up different ideas and trying to figure out what to type. God has been speaking to me lately on an idea that brings SO much freedom, and it’s too good not to share with you! Sooo keep oon readin’ ⬇️
Recently, as in this whole second semester, I’ve been pretty tired and worn out. Two words that have really characterized my actions have been “striving/trying”. I’ve constantly been striving to get school done, get my workouts in, do my devotions, choose the healthy option, get my to-do list done, write something encouraging on my blog, post the right things, be a Godly example, ect. And most days my efforts have fallen flat on their face. I either don’t get all my school done, or I workout but then binge chocolate, or I barely touch my to-do list– you know how it is. It’s impossible to do it all and remain sain… or at least for me it is. lol
What’s worse is that I’ve allowed my successes and failures/mess-ups to define me. It’s a “good” day when I do it all right, but if I mess up it’s a “bad” day. All of this striving started to effect me negatively. I found myself easily-irritated, overwhelmed, exhausted, and even sad. Those feelings do NOT represent the person I want to be. My family was even beginning to notice my tenseness and moodiness.
Then the other day I broke down. I had had enough of striving for perfection, which by the way, perfection is an illusion. Because what’s the definition of perfection? We can’t know what’s perfect except for knowing that Jesus is the ONLY One who is!
What I realized after my breakdown was something God had showed me a few days ago out of Psalm 91. One particular verse talks about how God gives His angels charge over us. This is really interesting because you would think God’s protection would be enough, but what that demonstrated to me is just how much God loves us. He knows His protection is enough, but He ALWAYS goes the extra mile for His children.
What I further realized is that because of who God is and how much He loves us, We don’t have to keep striving. Through the verses in Psalm 91, God was telling me, “Sophie, you are who I say you are ALWAYS, regardless of your successes or failures. They don’t define you; I do. Therefore, you can know that you are completely loved, valued, adored, beautiful, smart, lovely, and so much more. Stop striving and start resting!”
I can’t tell you what a relief that was. It made me realize how heavily I have defined myself based on my performance. Take it from me, performance will get you no where but exhausted quickly. It is NOT your performance, but your position in Christ!
- Psalm 46:10
“Be still and know that I am God.”
- Psalm 90:17
“And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us.”
- Psalm 91:11
“For He shall give His angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.”